Every feel this way?
go to bed feeling fantastic, wake up feeling HORRIBLE. just, the worst depression ever. it makes going to sleep dreadful, because all the gains you’ve made during the day to make yourself happy just go down the drain and you know you’re going to wake up the next morning back at square one and you have to build yourself back up to the happy place that you were at just 8 hours before right before you went to bed. it’s exhausting and so depressing. makes me think whether or not sleep is actually worth it because i know i’m going to wake up the next morning quite depressed and i’m going to have to work really hard to make myself feel just okay again. i don’t understand what’s going on. maybe it’s a vitamin deficiency?? so i tried taking vitamins today. maybe it’s intimacy. tried that. i just don’t understand how and why every morning, i get up feeling like i can’t breathe again. i feel as though someone sucked the life out of me and i cannot, for the sake of the world, get up and out of bed feeling remotely anything close to OKAY. not even happy, or content, or satisfied. OKAY. why is that so hard? is something wrong with me? i don’t want to believe i have to go on meds. i really don’t. i believe this is something that i can internally fix, but i haven’t found the right pathway in doing so yet. i just don’t understand. help anyone? tell me your experiences and what you do to make yourself get over it. thanks!
